A day off!

Today I had the day "OFF"!! Not that I don't have a mile long list of things I need to do on my "day off", but today was my first day off since November 07... a long time... Today I just putzed... took K.C. to the dog park, cleaned the house (it had gotten way out of hand and the dust bunnies were about to take over).. :o), sorted through stuff, and did some much needed paper work.

Sarah has been home all week sick with the flu. We joke that I prayed for years for Sarah to talk (she didn't till she was almost 5 yrs old) and that now I pray for her to be quiet.. She only stops when she is sleeping.

Well this week I definitely missed the music of her constant chatter. Between Sunday evening and Wednesday she said about 5 words, Wednesday she seem to rally of coarse in the doctor's office then about 5 more words till today. She is quiet for Sarah, but I am most definitely enjoying her chatter again... We both have enjoyed a relaxing day at home.

One of the projects I was working on was sorting out stuff in my "art" room. --Take to Kazakhstan, Give to Marc or Sarah, Give to a friend, yard sale, store until I return, Etc -- .. ugghh... I'm a pack rat by genetics...

As I was going through I realized that I'm probably at or near the half way mark of my life.. that is mind boggling... I'm still not caught up on the fact I don't have little kids anymore...

I came across a couple of pictures of my sisters and I.. Can you recognize me?

One sister then two sisters....

The Mudd Girls in the early 80's

The Mudd Girls 2008....

Where has the time gone...

The years have been marked with overwhelming sorry, fear, anger, sadness, and confusion. At the same time overflowing with great joys, love, friendships, and laughter. The tapestry that makes my life is woven from these, contrast and contradictions. I've made terrible choices, mistakes to many to count, and just been plain stupid in so many things.  I wish the gray hair reflected the amount of great wisdom I've acquired, but I think my gray far out numbers the wisdom I've gleaned.

As I look forward to this move I don't want to forget to enjoy each moment I have today!! That is all I am promised and I've wasted far to many days either looking back in regret at what I'd lost (or thought I'd lost), or looking forward to what I thought I wanted and would make me happy. Most times they were just illusions of what I thought not reality anyway. I no longer wish to waste a single day by not enjoying the many joys and blessings that are given just for this day.

This has been a great day to spend time with Sarah, enjoy K.C. playing at the dog park, corral the dust bunnies for today, work through the pile of papers on my desk, read a good book and enjoy the beautiful sun shine.